In 2010 I had a career change that did not seem to be by choice at first, but I took great pride in looking at the lemons and turning them into lemonade! In no uncertain terms has any of this been possible on my own. It took a serious path at reconnecting to the most important things in my life through a faith journey to repave my path and to stay on it, despite the steep inclines and hair-pin turns from time to time. Along the way, I have met some really incredible people…other women and mothers who have taught me more than I could have ever hoped for in just one lifetime. I see now why the faith journey was necessary to get me to where I need to be now.
What I share next may seem a bit dreary, but don't go there... See light shining through me...I feel it.
Ever feel like you are in the middle of a storm with sharp, cold rain beating down on your head and the bitter, cold winds blowing your hair into your eyes while you are trying to clear the blur and reground yourself and get your bearings? Then, you look up from deep thought and meditation to find that it’s still dry outside and the sun is barely trying to peek through the cold December fog…That you went to this little corner of your universe for a few moments to get in touch with emotions that you are better off dealing with than just pushing down and all poetry about the moment reassures you that things will be okay.
That’s what one day started out like last week when one of the people I love and admire most in my life had something really important to tell me. Right now, it’s not important who it is or what was shared as much as it is important to tell you how my faith journey has taught me to be thankful; and to see the blessings in even the most difficult of challenges. Forgive me for being vague…but the challenge is not mine to blog about right now and may never be; or mine to share in detail…but it is mine to pray about and mine to deal with in ambiguous terms so that the core of my faith can shine through for me and others who need it from me. Since that day a little more than a week ago, I’ve been on a bit of a rough ride with emotions but all in all, am more certain than ever that I am just where I am supposed to be. While some won’t ever take the same or a similar path as I have on my faith journey, or even understand it, they will benefit from the strength I can offer. For this I am thankful.
Things have changed a lot and so has my view from my paradigm of the world.The dynamics are a lot more inviting, invigorating and satisfying these days. Right now, I am just where I am supposed to be and feel like I have to reassure myself and others, despite what others may think about what we will be dealing with in the days and months to come because of recent news. Again, not mine to share in detail, but maybe in time.
I do plan on writing more either here or in a personal journal for my eyes only…I won’t be making commitments to show up anywhere in particular, but am experimenting with many outlets, including the exercise circuit where I am now running for part of my work out on a treadmill. I know. For those who really know me, can you believe it? Jim ran right alongside me one night last week at LT and we laughed out loud as I gained speed and momentum with Guns N Roses blaring in my ear drums! Gotta love it! Running hadn’t been part of my vocabulary for so many years. So as you see me morphing back into a 30-something attitude with my fun-side, rest assured the 50-something (did I say that out loud?! And it is ONLY 50) wisdom will shine through. Have a blessed day!
